Burnt Out

Second lockdown has begun

                                                All I do is uni work

I never game

                                                Only work, never take breaks

I keep having negative thoughts              

                                                I have changed

I do not feel good

                                                Life feels dark

I feel burnt out

I NEED AN ESCAPE

 

These are all the thoughts I have had for the first week on the three-week lockdown. I guess Should take breaks to stop burn out, but then I have guilt. I wish I could be stronger. Well thankfully, I will get a long break for the holiday season. At least this lockdown has an end for a bit. I need a mental health break before I actually snap. For now, I will complete my deadlines to relax for a long time before the grind continues.

                                      



 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Getting out of Burnout

Image
As the pandemic disrupted everyone's lives, my first degree got moved to home working… halfway through the second term which screwed up the whole system as we had no lectures at that time. It was so unproductive for me as I had no clue what to do since nothing was prepared. But I left with a 1 st class Hons degree and assumed I was over education. But as things didn’t improve in the world, I returned to university for a second degree, and in term 2 I managed to get a full-time job. This was extremely hard and stressful as I had no free time. When I finished work, I had to go straight back into uni work. Sometimes I had to attend lectures and work at the same time, it was hard to stay productive and I finally got burnt out… Burnout made me procrastinate and just give up on all work, I stopped being organised and caring about myself, physically and mentally. It took at least two months to get back to normal. I was able to get my second degree passed in June and as it’s Augus...
Read more

Two years ago I was victim of SA...

Image
I did not consent. You groped me, you took control and you did not let me escape. I had to stay with you and help you that night. I cried myself to sleep and could not look at myself in the mirror.  People told me to get over it and say it was not that bad. "Oh, he is not like that, it was just the drugs that night" Screw you all. two years and I am still not over it. I cried this weekend and you just carried on like nothing happened,  I hate you. 
Read more