How Dyspraxia has Impacted My Emotions

First time writing a blog post so here we go!

I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia and Dyslexia around four years ago back in college and it has made me realised the struggles I have had are a disability and are not part of life. One main struggle I have is emotions. 


I have a hard time to communicate and I get overly emotional. I have broken down many times for minuscule reasons.

Say if there is a set event that occurs in a different order I get a little upset. I will never let anyone sense something is wrong.  Now, my brain just noticed that there was a plan not in sequence, so I just freaked out.

It happens too often and when I am close to my period it becomes amplified.  I have gotten better to expect uncertainty especially with the quarantine occurring.  I have nearly cried in public when the surrounds I was in got too much for me and I just lost all senses. My partner and family are very understanding with my disability, he understands that sometimes can be in a mood for no reason at all. He is always there to help and comfort me.

Granted when I am in theses moods I will never lash out at as it is not fair.  I mean the mood can change all the time, can be extremely happy in the morning and by the evening be upset and isolated.

What I have been doing to manage my dyspraxic emotional outbursts are by taking online courses to improve communication as I have struggled with this. I have also made use of the ‘Count to 10 Method.’ This is where you count to 10 and inhale and exhale thrice. My partner says I have been improving and that is what I continue to do each day as I want to become a better girlfriend and person overall.

 

Cyndaquil  

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