My Crushing Thoughts of Academia

Academia can make us feel accomplished in life but there are so many struggles that can impact the life we end up with at the end of whatever certificate that is earned. For most completing a course has no lasting issues on their health and they can go onto different avenues without a break. But for some, the course can make then depressed or ramp up anxiety. With this they can lose who they are and become zombies and just are not motivated to keep going.

For me, as I was completing an Honours degree which changed my whole stance on life. I have become more stressed which has made be breakdown and cry until my eyes become dry and red. To the point, they are burning and painful. I’d say thanks Contact dermatitis for making it hurt after each breakdown. But I have become angrier.

I should take a break from education but due to COVID the job market has become screwed so I have decided to keep the cycle to my misery by attempting to get into a second degree. I should be fine, but it just hurts when a lot of tasks are put on and my brain just can’t escape. I do love to learn but I think the Honours Degree broke my spirit. I know I am not alone, but I feel like a burden when I am feeling this way and I hate crying all the time and then projecting my anger onto everyone who tries to communicate with me.


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