I Hate My Body

Every human comes in all shapes and sizes, everyone has their quirks. For me I hate my body, always have. I feel gross like I wish I was thinner and my stomach smaller. These have been my thoughts since I have been 13 and nothing has changed. I have lost weight over the years but wish it was quicker.

I have thrown out so many clothes if I can’t hide my figure. Doesn’t help with your ex picked you up and showed you all the problem areas in his mirrored closet.  I am thankful my current partner is a saint and has been encouraging of my body. He has been teaching me to stop being so mean to myself.

Well, I currently go on a daily walk (weather depending) and have been trying to incorporate sit-ups for 30 mins. I also have been eating smaller portions and have been reducing snacks. I guess this is working.  Although, I joined the gym before COVID and that made me feel a lot better, especially my mental state, so when those open I shall be using that to my advantage.

The summer months are when I feel the worst but currently, it’s hoodie weather, so I feel a lot better since my stomach is hidden. I just need to be kinder to myself I guess.  Although if I heard another human say any of this, I would be the first to stop then. If only I could stop myself.


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